Love Filled Shoes

It was an average day today. I spent the day waiting for my G.A. advisor to call me. There’s still a glitch with the county computer system. So it’s no food stamps till Monday. I also spent the day looking for work and getting really frustated because I can see peoples thoughts on their faces as clear as day.

It’s like they are all chanting “We will not hire a 400 pound woman.” I keep trying though. I know one day someone will stop slamming the door on my foot and let me work for them. Or enough time will have past that I’ve

• Lost a large amount of weight
• Volunteered enough time at our local county animal shelter
• Passed my animal breed test
• Passed my animal condition test
• Obtained my uthinesia certification
• Been hired by a local animal shelter, animal sanctuary, or vet clinic

Unfortunately the day ended with me judging my present health condition with my past health condition. I just hate the fact that I use to be able walk 2 miles to work, work eight hours, and then walk 2 miles home. Now I have a hard time walking just 2 miles and standing for an hour.

I use to be a walking Queen when I was 19. I use to walk from my apartment in Hollywood, California up Western Avenue to work at Pier One for 8 hours and then walk back home.

I know, I have to think positive. I have to walk in love filled shoes. I know eventually I’ll be able to do the above again. I know that I will be able work or volunteer at an animal shelter.

Plus with the fact about food. The lovely people at Sacred Heart gave Mike and I a box of food and some other stuff. Then a friend came over and brought us hamburger patties, cup of noodles, and some other stuff to share when he comes over during the week.