Absolutely frustrated!

If I was into destructive actions towards my body I would be pulling all of my hair out right now. I’m just completely frustrated with my personal life. The gears have literally grinded to a halt.

I’m not employeed.

I usually like to volunteer at places but I’m unable to get to these places because our family doesn’t have money for a second bus pass. Holy cow we barely have enough for one bus pass in this household.

Then the blasted scale weighed me in at 480 pounds today. I know that can’t be correct because I put in a total of 9 miles this week. I don’t want to brag but that’s a good accomplishment for someone that just barely started training. Today my husband and I are going for a two mile walk and we plan to finish the week with a total of 12 miles.

I guess I’m going to sell the scale and stick to measurements. I’m going to judge myself by how far, how long and how fast I can walk. Other than having children isn’t that what weight loss for women is about? We want to fit into that pair of jeans that is a size 12, 10, 8,…..

I think you know what I mean. The measuring tape is going to become my friend. Hopefully soon I will see the measurements get smaller and smaller. I wonder if my measurements will actually change weekly?  

Long day ending in pain

Sorry about getting this to everyone late. Mike and I had a long eight hours yesterday. All I wanted to do was get home, eat our dinner, watch a little T.V. and then crash.

It was a productive day because I was able to get almost three miles of walking in. Though by the end of our eight hours of errands my feet were on fire. I don’t know if my shoes are causing a heat rash on my foot or if it’s just rubbing on the feet. I’ve sent some emails to some fellow walkers and one to my uncle to find out how to prevent it. My uncle has been a runner for years and I’m sure that he’s dealt with this before.

Some of my friends on Sparkpeople suggested putting Vasaline or bee wax salve on my feet and then using cotton walking socks. I’m going to try that tonight when I head out for another walk.

I still have a lot of excitement inside of me today. I’m excited about the possibility of walking for the cure in 2009. I hope they are going to have one in Texas next year. I would like to do the 3 day walk and then spend some time with my sister, brother, and nephew in law.

I’m also excited about watching my measurements and the scale hitting lower numbers. I know that it’s not going to happen in a week but maybe I can see at least a 1 pound loss for the week.

Well Mike and I should get back to the job searching. It’s really, really tough out there. Especially with people who have roadblocks like we do. I know that God will help us find a way around it.

Everyone have a great Tuesday and I’ll see you later tonight to talk about my training today.

All or nothing

I was making Biscotti for family this morning. It’s part of the Christmas gift that I will be sending them. I had good results with the Biscotti but they didn’t come out like something you would see on the Food Network or at Starbucks.

I can’t believe that I was going to trash a heart felt gift idea because they weren’t perfect. It made me realize how much of an all or nothing attitude I had. I was going to make the perfect Biscotti or I wasn’t going to send any at all. Which is a bad thing because they taste really good.

How much of an all or nothing attitude do I have with weight loss? I honestly believe that the journey of weight loss is about learning. You don’t allow a baby to learn how to walk because the fall down, get bruises, scrapes, and bumps. You let them experiences the journey of learning to walk.

 I’m learning a new life-style. There are going to be days when I don’t exercise. There are going to be days when I don’t eat 100% correctly. It’s the point that I continue through the journey of creating a healthy lifestyle.

Eating For Today

Breakfast
fruit shake with skim milk and ice

Lunch
2 cups of Fresh Choice Chinese Chicken Salad
1 Fresh Choice Corn Muffin
2 cups of salad (spinach,radishes,zuchini,carrots,peanuts)
4 Tbsp thousand Island dressing

Dinner
Strip steak
1/2 baked potato

Total Calories 2014
Total Miles Walked 2 1/2 miles

I really have to get use to eating like this again. I’m really use to not eating anything for breakfast and lunch. I think I have some healthy breakfast, lunch, and dinners planned for my family and I. They include imitation crab salad with lots of vegetables, burritos with blackbeans, vegetarian lasagna, and some other things.

The 2 1/2 miles really kicked my butt. That was just from shopping for Christmas gifts and doing things around San Jose, California. I can really feel the muscles in my legs and behind saying “Stop Walking.”

I don’t want to stop. I have the duty to transform my body, mind, and spirit. I’m looking forward to seeing changes happen in my body and in my spirit.

Eating For Today

Total Calories 1466
1 hour of walking

I had wanted to eat close to 1800 calories today. On Friday, I’ll have to shop to make sure that we have more nutritious meals at the end of the month.

At the moment I’m writing down what that I eat because I want to get use to portions. I also ate before my husband came home. I wanted to eat a couple of hours before we went to bed.

On some nights he doesn’t get home till 10p.m and for me that’s just a little too late to eat. I also didn’t want my honey to portion out the food. I wanted to be responsible for the amount of food that was on my plate and went into my mouth.

Once again, I’m looking forward to going shopping on friday. I’m going to my favorite buffet place that has tones of fruits and vegetables. My honey just doesn’t like his vegetables and I’ll take any chance that I get to get my vegetables.

I went on an hour long walk today because I had a lot on my mind.

Week 2 Report

Last Weeks Weight 465+
This Weeks Weight 460+

I feel that next week is going to be so much better. 459 Lbs is going to hit my scale at home next week. I feel it so much that I can visually see it. If you don’t already know this, currently I have to use to scales to weigh myself. I do this because when I step on the one scale, it gives me a read out of ERR.

Except when I weigh myself with two scales I’m at 461 pounds. So I know that If I get down to 450 pound on two scales then I can start to only use one scale. Major joy for me because I can donate the other scale.

Last Weeks Measurements
Neck 20 in
Bust 57 in
Ribs 54
Waist 70
Hips 75
Left Arm 16
Right Arm 16 1/4
Left Bicep 25
Right Bicep 25
Left Thigh 43
Right Thigh 43
Left Calf 23
Right Calf 23 /12

Week 2 Measurements
Neck 20 in
Bust 57 in
Ribs 54 in
Waist 70 in
Hips 75
Left Arm 16
Right Arm 16
Left Bicep 25
Right Bicep 25
Left Thigh 43
Right Thigh 43
Left Calf 22
Right Calf 23

Not bad results, wooohoo! I would have liked the measurements to be from my chest, ribs, waist, hips, or thighs. Any reduction in measurements is a good reduction.

As for this week. my goal is to plan out healthy meals for thirty days. I just think that Michael and I are eating a lot of high processed foods. I personally don’t think that is healthy. I’m really trying to stick with the diet pulpit of eating food for fuel. I need to figure out the things that I want to fuel my body with.

I also want to increase my activity. Three hours of activity was good but I really would like to have five hours. That will be two days to do something like light stretching and then the rest of the days will be cardio and weight training.

I don’t think I’ll have any problem including more activity because I will be adding volunteer time at the Animal shelter that I volunteer at. Hopefully they will have me doing things like walking the dogs, cleaning cages, and all the active stuff. Then I know I’ll be getting my activity in.

2nd Week Review

Total Minutes Exercising: 240

We’ll see what the scale and measuring tape say today after NBC’s The Biggest Loser. I don’t feel lighter, so any loss on the scale will be a big joy.

I wonder what the major drama is going on at the Biggest Loser? What is bringing the 40 year old from New York to tears? Don’t tell me he’s at goal weight already. All of them looks so good. I can’t wait to see the final show.

Midweek Check In

Weight loss is an absolutely long journey to travel or at least it feels that way. Especially around the holidays when there is food, sweets, and treats all over the place.

My plan is to let myself have one treat each week so I don’t end up in that all or nothing attitude. I know if I end up with that kind of attitude then everything will go haywire and I’ll end up eating more sweets than I want to.

Target Heart Rate
Now that I have a routine of doing aerobic activity every day. I want to work on my rarget heart rate. The last time I exercised my heart rate was at 130. I have no idea if this is what my target heart rate should be. So today I’m going to have to sit down and figure it out here.

Eating
I’m still working on having my calories range between 1800 – 2200. I have two things against me at the moment. We don’t have the food in the house and I don’t get very hungry during the daytime. It looks like it will have to come down to someone reminding me to eat during the day.

How is everyone else doing? How are you going to handle the holidays?

Really Working It

Ok. I need to turn down Jennifer Lopez before I blow my ears out. I really need to work on getting my calories in. I just don’t feel hungry in the morning and afternoon. Then about 3 p.m. the hunger starts creeping in.

So I’m going to try to get breakfast, a snack, lunch, and a second snack in during the day. Hopefully my body will start telling me when it’s hungry and I won’t have to worry about it anymore.

Exercise
1 hour of walking
1 hour of weight training for arms

Don’t count me out for the count already

Yesterday someone commented that “Super morbidly obese folks just don’t work at those levels from day one.” No offense but I’m going to prove you wrong with my actions on this one.

There are super morbidly obese folks out there that do work out at the level I wrote about yesterday. I’m sure you have seen NBC’s The Biggest Loser obviously they were not sitting around doing nothing.

Even if I do half the exercise that I wrote down. I would be doing more than what your educated guess thought I would.

Hey look, I’m not trying to spit at your comment but you really came across as the whole idea was going to be a failure. That a person can’t do it alone and that super obese people just don’t want to be active.

As for seeing a doctor. The last few doctors that I went to just wanted to prescribe drugs for my weight loss.

I agree that a doctor should be seen to keep everything in check such as blood pressure, diabetes, heart condition, and etc. I don’t see what the point since I have had my blood pressure, diabetes, and heart checked.

For those of you who are like me. Moderation is the key and activity is important even if your not moving as quickly as “Normal” people are moving. It’s the fact that you are developing a healthier lifestyle and increasing your activity level.

You also don’t have to be as adventurous as I am. Bicep curls, Squats, and aerobic activity is a lot of work in one day. Just plan an active event for one hour a day and do it.

Sorry Nike!